I do plenty of things secretly ’cause I think most people sees it as dumb, unimportant and unnecessary. Plus, I’m a weakdipshit so I chose to be anonymous.
I am a bad writer. It’s shit.
(Stay with me though, just read a little more.)
But I’m here not to impress anyone, but to find someone I can relate to and hopefully, vise versa.
More than that,
I can’t express thoughts that tinker my brain every night as if I have to solve problems that don’t even exist (yet) and be insecure of these beautiful monsters that I wish I am,
and I can’t tell YOU what’s happening on my side of bed when you’re sound asleep.
Opening those kinds of thoughts makes me weaker, more vulnerable, and it’s stupid.
I fear that they’ll use it against me,
I’ve decided that I am a shallow person, therefore I force myself to disregard negative feelings even if it haunts me every night (and day, if I get lucky),
they’ll hear, but don’t listen,
they invalidate what I feel and push more thoughts in my head that’ll make me harder to sleep.
That’s about it.
Told u I’m a shitty writer.
As if someone’s gonna read this haha